EvAnGeLiCaLiZeD WoRLd

EVIL IS GOING DOWN!!!

2007-08-31T20:07:00.000-07:00

i talk to him...
the prince of demons
he such a fucking asshole who thinks he's great
he never think that me and mua sis is going to fight him till the end
and our dear fren who he is hurting with will also help
you think you will win
i think you'll lose
cuz you have no other way to choose
God is great, God is good
and I know he'll be with us no matter what
so evil and darkness.. YOUR"re so going DOWN!!!

:: No PLaCe ThAt FaR ::

2007-08-23T18:23:00.000-07:00

"No Place That Far"
I can't imagine any greater fear
Than waking up without you here
And though the sun would still shine on
My whole world would all be gone
But not for long
If I had to run
If I had to crawl
If I had to swim a hundred rivers
Just to climb a thousand walls
Always know that I would find a way
To get to where you are
There's no place that far
It wouldn't matter why we're apart
Lonely months, two stubborn hearts
Nothing short of God above
Could turn me away from your love
I need you that much

:: ThE PLaCe I YeArN FoR ::

2007-08-22T05:42:00.000-07:00

Sometimes if I look back in life,
I will cry and just stare at the knife,
Wondering to move a step further,
Of another suicide case or murder.

Taking time off is hard and a scare,
When you cant stand it and turn to bear,
All weaknesses, sufferings and pains from me,
Even all worries and pain within him.

If I have chosen a place to die,
The place must be where I cry,
The last tear which rolled my face,
It's the end of another love craze..

If I have chosen a place to die,
The place must be the place I like,
The place where I feel peace within,
To help me forget what I did to him..

If I have chosen a place to die,
The place must be the place no crime,
The place is the one that I love most,
And where I can see all the heavenly host..

The place I love, the place I like,
Is where the winds blow till I can fly,
Up and up, above the clouds,
I will never forget my true-love vow..

Yet the place must be at the sea,
The place of courage and sound of wind,
If I took one more step over the fence,
I think I can really stop all my pretence..
After that step, I have to go,
To someplace where I'll never know,
The ocean, the river and the sea,
This is the place where I love and am free...

The time has come for me to show,
The truth and move that I had to know,
A decision so tough which cannot decide,
Well, I guess this reaches the time...

:: Veni, Vidi, Vici ::

2007-08-22T05:39:00.000-07:00

"Veni, Vidi, Vici... I came, I saw, I conquered... This area that I have wandered.."
The area I've wandered is so beautiful with its wonders of Her natural beauty.. This
place I love is none other than what God has made it to be.. The river.. The sea..
The ocean.. Yes, is the water by the bay.. Where I can see what I may.. The one place
that I love most will be sight-seeing by the sea.. It's so calm, so magnificant, and so
lovely.. Yet, no one had ever appreciate this kind of thing.. NATURAL BEAUTY OFTHE ENVIRONMENT.. Let me tell you why I love the sea... Sea makes me calm,
whenever I'm stressed.. I can even just admire the waves splashing forth at the
bay whenever I'm sad.. Sometimes words cannot cure what's in your heart.. But
the quietness within can set you apart.. This is one natural thing that came to
me.. A thing of love and evergreen.. I came, I saw, I conquered...Veni- I had
came here on one purpose.. To witness the natural beauty and its instincts of
nature.. Vidi- I saw what I suppose to see.. God's creation to mankind.. A natural
environment of ecosystem.. Vici- I conquered the place of the Southern Most TipOf The Continent Of Asia..

:: WiShiNG FoR YoU ::

2007-08-22T05:36:00.000-07:00

I have one thing in mind,
A thing that I might find,
So hard to tell and be expressed,
But I had to before I depress..

I had one dream,
With a whip of cream,
The cream of love,
From the Almighty above..

The Almighty gave,
The feeling of love in a haste,
Where I deeply fond of you, my love,
Please don't leave me and clamp me in gloves..

My heart has only you,
I know you might think I'm a fool,
Waiting for a chance of being with you,
But time has lost and it's not cool..

I always wish we're together,
No matter how thick or thin, the weather,
But I was wrong no matter,
Because your love for me is as light as a feather..

Even it takes a million days,
A million days will be,
I'll wait and wait and I pray,
That you'll accept me for what I'll be..

I wished and wished,
That you'll be with me,
I cried, I bleached,
But you left me..

But one last thing that I really want,
Is the chance of love that just begun,
I wished you'll take notice of me,
For I will always be flying free..

Promise me a thing or two,
That you'll never cry like a fool,
When I end my life in a haste,
Give up now, 'cuz its no chase..

Promise me now,
Don't ever break your word,
'Cuz this is the time,
Where I don't need the world..

A wish I hope that it can be granted,
Please give me your word which can be trusted,
That you'll be here with me forever,
In this heartfelt position where you'll leave me never...

:: A FooL To YoU ::

2007-08-22T05:29:00.000-07:00

A fool! A fool!
That's what I am to you..
A sinner, yes, a loather,
Of what you think is cool..

Love of all is unnoticable,
When you cry out loud in decibels.
Time is ticking slowly, nothing at all,
Dont do this to me till I make a great fall.

Sitting beside the sea of death,
Sitting beside the sea of stress,
Sitting beside the sea of love,
Waiting for the day I rise up above..

By the sea I await your arrival,
Where I see you loving my rival,
By the sea I await your love,
Where I see you and your love..

I'm waiting here as a lonely girl,
Who waits for you in this lovely frail,
I'm waiting for you-Yes I do!
But waiting here just like a fool..

One word of LOVE is not enough,
One word of SORRY is not so tough,
But one sentence of LIE, you won't break free,
When will you ever notice me?

:: HuRt RuLe Me AgAiN ::

2007-08-20T09:23:00.000-07:00

Love for me is never ending..

The love once i had was so devastating..

It killed my soul..

I put it on hold..

Yet I came back screaming..

Why do you have to lie to me?

Why on earth you make me happy?

What do you take me for?

A toy or maybe even a puppy?

I know I sucked way hard,

I know I plucked that out,

I know I am ignorant,

In this bloody world of conscience,

Yet I lay here in the current,

Of the lovely waves by the ocean..

Maybe its time for me to shut up,

Maybe its time for me to bunk out,

Maybe its time for me to get out,

Maybe its time for the fall out..

Deep within me

It really hurts

I cannot take it

Or I will burst..

Should I let go, the sight of you..

The memories will be gone

Before half past two..

I try my best, my very best,

To let it rest and claim effects..

I will clear my mind,

And let it shine,

As I lay here,

With my dying breath..

I really cannot let go,

I cant say no,

But for the sake of your own,
I got to behold..

-EvAnGeLiCaL ChRiS-

...Hurt Rule Me Again...

:: EvAnGeLiCaL ChRiS ::

2007-08-20T09:16:00.000-07:00

This is my first logo that I've designed

..Evangelical Chris..

With the help of my blue marker pen

With the help of my highlighters

With the help of my handphone

It cant be any better

Sketch it out

Cuz it's damn nice

Look at it closely

Cuz it's really mine

It's my logo

And you cant say no no

So look its in bits and bits

I cant help it

Cuz I'm EvAnGeLiCaL ChRiS

:: PaRtS AnD PiEcEs Of EvAnGeLiCaL ChRiS ::

2007-08-20T09:02:00.000-07:00

In this EvAnGeLiCaLiZeD WoRLd of mine, this is where i blog it out.. my experiences.. my sadness.. my sufferings.. this is another side of my life where no one can actually witness it.. its time for me to let it go.. and open it to everyone..anyone.. you'll see a bubbly side of me.. but that my dear friends is the outer covering of christine that you know.. did you ever thought of how the looks inside me? have you ever wondered that before.. now i put the question at your face right this instance... DO YOU REALLY KNOW CHRISTINE THAT WELL? hmm... No would be your answer right?? well, its okay.. i'm normal with it.. let me bring you into the world where i live.. my life was full of happiness, joy and understanding.. its like heaven to me.. where little angels flying in and out daily for their routine.. its like they're keeping me safe and sound and happy always.. but something went wrong at the beginning of form3.. life then was tough.. hard enough for me to hold on to my life.. i need help yet no one knows... i was hurt time and time again.. i fell down.. cuts and bruises were all over me.. i cried for help, but nothing came out.. not even a single voice of sorrow from me.. i shout by day, i cried by night.. no one had ever heard me.. i was trapped.. trapped in darkness.. no light.. nothing.. i began to be much more sorrowful yet unhappy in my entire life.. it seems that something had blocked me from loving the person i love.. the people i love, ended up hating me.. i was thrown down like a trash.. like a shit.. i was crushed down endlessly.. yet, all i wanted was to be someone who never lost faith.. i never stop loving someone that i love most.. never ever giving up.. i was trying to find all oppurtunity for me to stay on track and never to give up on him.. yet, seeing him happy makes my life happier.. although he's just a friend.. a close friend.. yet, i dont mind seeing him from afar.. just to take notice of him and seeing his face.. i do miss him day by day.. i cant text him or even give a call.. its harsh.. but i had to live with it.. i really sometimes felt like bursting but, i told myself not to.. i had to move on.. but, in a sense where, loving him dearly will always be a part of my heart.. he has earn a place in my heart.. i cherished him, like what lovers do.. but in a one-sided kind of love.. i know i cant be with him, cuz i'm not good enough for him.. all i needed is love and care.. i need him alot in my life.. by just being friends, i'm contented.. i hope God can give me a chance to be with him.. i hope.. but i wont get it.. i've been figuring out, what i had done to deserve this.. yet, i realise i am two-sided person where i have two different personalities that you see.. normally, you would see me as a bubbly kind of person.. that is my outer-covering.. but in me, is another person.. a person kinda gothic.. a person who is also known as EvAnGeLiCaL ChRiS.. this is the dark side of me.. where sadness rule me all.. so i wished i can express myself through here.. i loved a person so much.. and by loving him hurts me alot.. he doesnt realise how much pain i'm through.. but all i know, i'll never give him up.. his text messages are all in my phone.. not wanting to delete it as it is way precious to me.. so EvAnGeLiCaL ChRiS will never let him go.. i love you always.. and i will always do..

:: MeMoRiES of EvErLaStiNG F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P::

2007-08-19T09:54:00.001-07:00

Memories of everlasting F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P

Memories within,
Hail in between,
The bells are ringing,
In the worst winds.

Friendship does last,
Friendship does go,
They come in a blast,
Or even through snow.

Good friends will shine,
Best friends does too,
But good friends will lie,
And best friends will woe.

Size wont matter,
Whether big or small,
They're the same and better,
Whether they are tall.

We need their care,
We need their share,
We need their love,
Will they give it to us?

Yes of course!
Yes they do,
They're in our thoughts,
And so are you.

If he went off,
If he freaked out,
If he left you in a loft,
Don't ever hide a cloud.

Cry if you want,
Sob if you dare,
Scream if you want,Don't kill it till bare.

Banish all hatred,
Don't leave it like a patron,
Forgive every wronging,
They sense your belonging.

Cherish that thought,
Cherish that love,
Friends are forever lots,
Don't end up with blood.

::LIFE!! I HATE YOU SO MUCH!!::

2007-08-19T09:52:00.000-07:00

LIFE!!! I HATE YOU SO SO SO MUCH.. DID YOU KNOW THAT?? ITS HARSH WEI.. I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!! WHY CANT YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND GIVE ME A BETTER TIME OF MY LIFE.. WHY IN THE END YOU GIVE ME SUCH TERRIBLE LIFE!! WHY LIFE?? WHY?? DONT EVER FORCE ME TO END IT.. I NEED TO LIVE ON.. JUST GIVE ME A BETTER LIFE.. I NEED THAT.. THAT'S ALL.. I NEED THAT ONLY.. I WILL FIND HAPPINESS AND I WILL FIND MY COURAGE TO MOVE ON AND ON AND I WILL TRY MY BEST... I hate my LIFE so much.. why cant i have a better LIFE!! sigh

:: SaDnEss RuLe Me ALL::

2007-08-19T09:42:00.000-07:00

one thing people hate in their life is sadness.. misery that causes pain and sufferings to one.. if i were to say that all the sufferings i had in this life of mine is painful yet crucial, does anyone out there believe me?? really, i really want to end my life sometimes.. yet i couldnt do it.. because i had to live on and to help other people.. i really want them to know, i'm suffering.. i'm lonely.. i'm hurt.. but no one knows.. even my closest friends and god-siblings.. i hate myself.. i hate my life.. i wish that i can say goodbye to this world.. but i cant.. i had to live on.. live on for the sake of my buddy.. my sisters.. i love them loads.. will they love me too?? i miss them, i need them.. i need their love, their care... i hope they'll be there for me when i break down.. just the way i was there for them.. till then.. i hope

:: SoRrY EvErYoNe.. It'S My LiFe ::

2007-08-19T09:34:00.001-07:00

its miserable.. the life.. the torments of life... is there such thing as good and bad.. the holy and evil.. yet another life will be taken away.. away from me.. one will not know how much their loved ones are important to them until they go away.. i made a decision.. a decision which i may regret forever.. a decision to leave this sad and hurtful place that i call - home.. time is passing quickly.. and i know within me that i soon will be leaving this world.. this world of sadness.. world of torments.. hatred and yet another poisonous stinging word, LOVE.. yes, this word LOVE had actually crushed me down to earth.. this word LOVE has made me fall time and time again.. this word LOVE has actually had a knife pierced through my heart.. wishing that i wont actually live again.. i wish, i'm taking this test.. 'The Test Of Life'.. where my life is at stake.. i will be taking this test soon.. and i know it.. i wish that before i go, everything will take place in order.. everything is done.. people sees me as if i am a healthy girl.. but deep within me, i know whats going wrong.. i feel the pain.. the torments.. the bleeding.. the tears.. whom i shed every single day for this one particular friend.. yet he doesnt even know it.. he in the other end has another mysterious girl.. whom he loves most.. i'm not saying that its unfair.. maybe i admit, i'm jealous.. but all this things will soon fade away.. as i know, he wont come to me.. as he treats me as a best fren.. a good buddy.. yet, i just sitting here, thinking about him.. but i never tried to voice out anymore.. not wanting to get a lecture or the same words which he will say to hurt me.. i can say that, i cried more than what a normal person can do.. i cried nights unwillingly to know that my heart hurts when i think about him.. what on earth can i do?? all i can do is just sit back and watch him willingly with the mystery girl that he loves, i guess... to me now, my life is coming to an end.. i can feel it.. but i have to fufill all my duty- as a daughter, a friend and a loner.. i know i promised my dear yolanda alot of things.. i really want her to be happy.. and i will help her if she needs help.. i hope she will understand why i really want to help her.. its because i see her as a sister, a close friend.. its like the feeling of 'love-at-fist-sight' but not in that boy-girl manner.. when i first met her, i realise that, wow.. she's that girl who i will understand and get along with the most... i know, to Kelvin (Lil' Kel), maybe i'm not a good buddy after all.. being with him is the best thing i ever done.. but, i donno whether he'll feel it this way too.. in the sense that, i had to be his friend.. a friend and not more than that.. cuz i remembered promising him once.. yet, i cant help and i cant stop my feelings any longer.. its bleeding out from my heart, but still i got to be stuck as his buddy... my parents..i wish them good health.. although i tried so hard making them happy for my exam marks, they will not be satisfied.. mum, dad.. i'm sorry for everything.. if i cant make up to your standard, then i'm sorry.. if i take my chance to do another thing instead of your wish for me becoming an accountant, i'm sorry... yolanda dear.. i'm so sorry that i couldnt help you much about our problem.. i hope i can solve our problem soon.. but just dont give up hope on me.. if i leave you halfway, be strong.. always remember, i'm with you... kelvin dear.. you're such great friend.. but liking you more doesnt give me any good points any longer.. i wont force you to like me.. let nature takes its course..i'm willing to wait.. but i hope, we'll be friends forever... soon next year, i'll be handing my commentating youth mass job to the most capable person.. and i will go overseas to persue my studies.. hoping that, everyone will lead a good life except me...

::Too Late For Love::

2007-08-19T09:27:00.000-07:00

Too Late For Love

Day by day,

Seems like hours to me,

I cried and prayed,

Like the dead under this nutmeg tree.

My love has gone,

Too far from me,

I wonder why,

He doesn’t love me.

Time to think,

time to share,

Cant he even bother to care,

I cried by day,

I cried by night,

When will I ever see my lovely knight?

Splitting apart is so hard,

My heart is too pain,

To stand this game,

And I felt like dying my part.

Days and nights are long to me,

I feel weird when I can’t reach him,

Six days passed and he has his wish,

But six days later will I ever live?

All those crying, pain and sleepless nights,

Made me lose my loving knight,

Before six days I lost my head,

Praying myself to be dead.

Blood slowly oozes out from the hand,

All these are such a trend,

Sharp slicing knife are slit into veins,

Heavens cry and down came the rain.

My love might cry and feels regret,

But you can’t move time to the back,

Rising up to heaven, white like a dove,

Dearest knight, is it already too late for love?

::LiPs Of An AnGeL - Hinder::

2007-08-19T08:57:00.000-07:00

Lips Of An Angel lyrics

Honey why you calling me so late?

It's kinda hard to talk right now.

Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?

I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room

Sometimes I wish she was you

I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice say my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight

And, yes, I've dreamt of you too

And does he know you're talking to me Will it start a fight

No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room

Sometimes I wish she was you

I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice say my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice say my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?